Hello friends, I wanted to apologize for my lack of posting on my blog and keeping up with the latest updates as well as pouring my heart by encouraging you as my readers. However, I needed time to focus. I needed time to focus on my growth, spiritual maturity, my personal well-being, and deal with some personal issues and events that occurred since the end of last year.
These past few months have been insane. I have gone through more pain than I could possibly imagine but also so much joy. I had to make several life decisions that changed several avenues in my life. I had a lot of people disapprove my decisions and that is okay. I do not live for the opinions or approval of others because I live to please Jesus Christ.
(SIDE NOTE: Don’t worry, these life decisions are not bad or sinful. Just to clarify that!)
I lost several friendships but I have learned that real friendships will never leave you even during difficult times. I have learned that some friendships last in seasons. Some friendships will come and go. Some friendships may return in different seasons. Some friendships may last a lifetime. Regardless, I have learned so much and have accepted my small circle of friends. I have learned to never take anything or anyone for granted because life is a season. Each season has a purpose because every day contains purpose even when we cannot see the purpose or reason in the moment.
I have learned to never allow my emotions react when people falsely accuse, gossip, or slander who I am. This was a tough and valuable lesson. Honestly, I am thankful for it because I learned so much about who I am in Christ. I learned that people will see who I am and Christ within me, no matter what someone speaks falsely against me. I have learned to love and forgive those who have hurt me. I have learned how to forgive those who have not asked for forgiveness. I have learned how to let go and let God deal with every circumstance. I have learned that my actions speak louder than the words that I say and what others say about me. My fruit speaks volumes and that is proof that Jesus is living inside of me.
Let’s Play Thumb War, JK!
In January, I had an unfortunate night at work where I accidently slammed my thumb in the vault door. I spent over 6 hours in the Emergency room with my co-worker and father until they finally stitched my thumb together. I am SO THANKFUL because as my doctor quoted, “you nearly amputated your thumb.” I lost the thumb nail, broke the tip of the bone, had over 10 stitches on both sides of my thumb, and nearly amputated it. I went through months of healing. My nail has grown back; however, I do not have the same feeling and sensations anymore. In fact, it is still extremely sensitive. It is difficult to push buttons or button up certain shirts because my thumb cannot grip anymore. Regardless, I am so thankful that I have my thumb and went through the terrible physical and emotional healing to be where I am at.
My Burden Behind Anxiety
I have learned (and still learning) how to handle and cope with my anxiety. Within the past year, I have developed severe anxiety. I have developed several symptoms that have ultimately made me feel crippled to my anxiety. Some days, it is harder to get out of bed and go to work. Some days, it is hard to sit in the confined walls of a church. Some days, I cannot prevent myself from vomiting and getting enough sleep because my anxiety has taken over my entire body. Some days, I am deeply depressed because of my anxiety and feel that my anxiety has won the battle. It has been awful. However, I am learning that I am okay and God is with me when I am anxious. I think anyone who suffers from anxiety will say the same thing that reciting the verse from Philippians 4:6-7, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” It is great to recite this verse but when you are in the middle of an anxiety attack… it is harder to recite a verse like this when you cannot focus. It is so hard because you’re too focus on the attack more than the encouragement from God’s word. This is something that I am learning and will continue to learn throughout my life.
HERE’S THE EXCITING NEWS THOUGH:
Regardless, life has been a journey. I am excited to come back and begin blogging regularly (hopefully full-time). I am excited for where God is taking me and the woman that He is molding me to be. I am excited as I finish my second semester at Liberty University to be a life coach for women’s ministries.
Throughout 2016-2017, I was a part of GLAM Camp for Girls’ devotional called Dwell. I was able to write some devotionals as well as a testimony for them. If you want to check out the devotional book, click here: Dwell Devotional
A few months back, I started an encouraging text thread. I had over 500 girls join! Crazy, right!? You can join too! There are three ways to join!
- Text @jeniferx to 810-10 to join automatically
- Download the app called Remind and join the class, @jeniferx
- Click the link: Join Here!
This summer, I am preparing and designing some apparel as well as some encouraging posts within my blog and Shoutout Radiance on Instagram. I am also working on some other cool projects but I will reveal them at a later date.
I rarely ask for this but please continue to pray for me because life is not easy. I am still learning, growing, and developing. Life as a Christ follower is extremely difficult. Let’s stick together and continue to pray for one another. And don’t forget to encourage one another when I am not always able to respond back to your private messages on Twitter or Instagram (even the encouragers in the world need some encouragement).